Title: Shinjuku Sunset
By: Shin-chan
Pairings: ?+4
Warning: Depressing, Deathfic, kinda sappy
Archive: Onegai?
Date: 10/04/00

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Geez, I'm on a weird kick. Again this song was originally in Jap. and translations are shaky lil things. A nice, sad fic to suit this weird song from Yorodin Samurai Troopers that, I may add, has been stuck in my head for days! 'neways originally sung by Sasaki Nozomu (Shin Mouri) and YST, this song, and GW aren't mine. Oh well. C & C welcomed, flames will be used to keep my fires to Shinigami going.

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"Quotes/lyrics"
(translation)
[thoughts]
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"Nagai biru no kage
(The long shadow of the building
"Ochiru kousaten
(Falls on the intersection
"Kimi ga kami o yorashi nagara
(You while shaking your hair
"Hashiri satte yuku"
(Are dashing away)

I shake my head and gently wipe away your tears. I am so sorry for hurting him like this but, I just can't stay. From his wide, aqua eyes, so loving and caring, to his silky blonde hair and open smile. I'll never forget him. Yes, I know I love him, my little angel, but I don't know how to. As he runs off sobbing, I feel my heart implode.

"Konna sayonara ga
(That kind of goodbye
"Niau boku-tachi sa
(Suits us
"Kimi wa nakigao nado misezu
(You see a tear-stained face
"Hito nomi ni kieta"
(Disappearing in a sea of people)

I turn around to walk away but, hesitantly look back. Almost as if hopeing for you to come back. I feel a tear slide down my face, I didn't even realize I was crying. As I walk down the buisy street, I catch a glimpse of bright blonde. I turn towards it, only to find it was nothing.

"Lonely sunset
(Lonely sunset
"Yuuhi no iro ni machi ga somaru koro
(This time the sunset colors the town
(The loneliness that people hide in their chests
"Hontou no kimochi ga ienai"
(Never saying their true feelings)

I sit on a crate, fiddling with the ring you gave me and glance up, seeing the beautiful sky. Memories of walks in the sunset with you come to me. I close my eyes and allow myself to cry. I miss him already. [Why did I have to be so dumb? Why could I not tell him how I felt? Why did I have to leave him?]

"Itsumo kono machi o
(In this town I always
"Kimi to aruita ne
(Walked with you
"Koko wa omoide ga oosugite
(Here there are so many memories
"Sukoshi tsuaku naru"
(It becomes painful)

I wish I could come back to you, I truly do. I still can feel your silky skin and hear your gentle whispers of 'I love you'. I can still taste you sweet mouth and feel your soft, warm hands. [Oh, Quatre, I wish I could have told you. I now know it to be true. Quatre, I DO love you.]

"Kaze ga tsuyoi biru no tanima
(The wind is strong between the buildings
"Sotto furikaeru"
(As I secretly look back)

With shaking hands I smooth out the folds on the picture of you. I doubt you even know I kept this. A cool breeze blows by, ruffling my hair. It smells faintly of those wildflowers you love so much. A single tear splatters against the worn picture.

"Lonely sunset
(Lonely sunset
"Kokoro ga sepia iro ni somaru koro
(When the heart is colored sepia
"Shinjuk sunset
(Shinjuk sunset
"Nani ka ga oto o tatete kuzureteku
(Somethin sounds like it's collapsing.
"Kokoro o hiraite kuretara"
(Please open my heart)

I glance back at the tents and sigh. They're my only 'family' now. They'll probably not think of me as stupid or foolish but, I know I am. I look down at the small, steel dagger and smile faintly, [I'm sorry Quatre, I'm truly sorry I hurt you. I can't live with out you yet, I can't live with you. This is the only way.] I level the blade of the knife at my chest, positioning the point over my shattered heart. I look up at the fading sunset and whisper, "Quatre, I'm sorry," as I drive the shining blade home.

"Lonely sunset
(Lonely sunset
"Yuuhi no iro ni machi ga somaru koro
(This time the sunset colors in the town
"Shinjuk sunset
(Shinjuk sunset
"Kodoku ga hito no mune ni shinobikomu
(The loneliness that people hide in their chest
"Hontou no kimochi ga ienai"
(Never saying their true feelings)

I faintly hear someone crying out my name and small hands clutch at my chest, trying desperately to stop the blood. I squint my eyes open, just to see my angel kneeling by me, tears rolling down his face. I whisper hoarsely to him, "Quatre, I'm sorry I-" I start couching. He gently brushes my hair out of my face, "don't talk, it'll be alright." I couch again, feeling the darkness closing in around me. With my last breath I whisper, "Quatre, I love you..."
The small blonde clutches at the taller boy's body and cries, "No! No... you can't die... I love you too.... No... TROWA!" The Arab collapses atop of him, exhausted both mentally and emotionally.

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WOW! Depressing. I can't believe I just wrote that. Oh well

~*~Shin-chan~*~